demons of obsession

I have always had bad habits that hinder my well being.

recently I have also developed obsessions.

horrible obsessions, that draw all my energy.

obsessions that occupy all my thoughts and that become my everyday life.

vampire type obsessions.

obsessions that keep me trapped in a spider net - the more I struggle, the more I am doomed.

obsessions I go to bed with

obsessions I see in the darkness of the night when I have no sleep

obsessions that are sharing my morning toothbrush habits

obsessions that make my breakfast vapid

obsessions that don’t fade away no matter how much I compulsively eat.

obsessions that are here to stay.

and I see how I lose myself in these obsessions

I see how I live not my life (whatever that might be) but my obsessions

obsessions that chose instead of me to obsess and not live.

I have asked someone how to get rid of bad habits and obsessions.

the answer was: you just do.

well, my latest “you just do” lasted 4,5 minutes.

not very convincing, isn't it?