the world as I know it. or is it the dream?

part 1: form 7am to 10-11-12pm.
it is commonly known as the real world. but this is just a theory.

part 2: from 10-11-12pm to 7am.
it is known as the sleeping part of the day. but what words have to do with the reality?

and so I have to separate words in which I live.
or perhaps two separate dreams.

most of the time the majority of happiness lies in one of the life-dream. while the other is full of shit and stupidity.
and i consider myself lucky for this because during 24 hours I rarely have two nightmares although I almost never have two sweet dreams in a road.

I am wondering what will happen when I will not be able to distinguish the life from the dream (as the rest of the world understands it).
I'll be happier of just I won't care?

where am I?

din nebuloasele zilei de astazi am decis sa trag o concluzie.
today my life sucks...

probabil ca sufar de un dezechilibru de chimicale sau probabil ca pur si simplu imi vad viata asa cum isi vede un barbat amanta a doua zi dupa prima noapte de sex, fara make-up.

nu imi place ce fac.
nu imi place ce am devenit.
nu imi plac oamenii cu care lucrez.
nu imi mai place nimic.

este posibil sa fi ajuns la concluzia asta dupa o serie de lungi si nesfarsite zile negre si intunecate prin care am trecut.

cert este ca m-am plafonat si acum nu stiu pe unde sa scot camasa mai bine si mai elegant.
imi trebuie o schimbare si inca una rapida. altfel o iau razna.

intrebarea este: de unde sa imi fac curaj de schimbare?

intrebarea este: in ce unitate de masura trebuie sa fie exprimata schimbarea pentru a ma drege de starea in care ma aflu?

intrebarea este: incotro mon cher? o fi bine la bulivard???

nu am un raspuns azi.
tot ce am este o stare de greato-lene si un post-it.
acesta.